Andrew's Birthday Party

This is the only video I took of Andrew's birthday. I should have had someone video while we were singing to him, because it was pretty funny. At first he didn't know what was going on, then he was happy to see and hear everyone singing to him. He loved the cake, thanks to Betsy, who made an adorable and delicious lemon marble cake that looked like a puppy. Unfortunately, I erased the picture I had of his cake! What a dummy I am sometimes! But not to fear - Betsy is sending me her copy soon. Thank goodness she's as OCD as I am in organizing and documenting

After we gave him the cake, which you can see he deliberately threw on the floor, my beloved brother-in-law, Fred said in a very concerned voice, "Koelle, are you ok?" (Because it was an absolute mess). Yes, it seems the crucial ingredient in curbing OCD is alcohol. After 5 glasses of sangria, I was able to allow him to destroy that cake and my floor without twitching!

Above are also pictures from the party. He had a great time and got a lot of nice gifts. Thanks so much to all of you who came or sent things for him. He is very lucky to have been born into such a wonderful group of family and friends.

It's another beautiful day here today, so I am going to get ready and take the boys outside. I hope everyone is having some wonderful spring weather like we are! It does wonders for your morale!

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Andrew's First Birthday

I can hardly believe that this time one year ago, I was still sitting at my kitchen table, pregnant! We went into the hospital around 1130, and Andrew was born at 1:31pm, 4/24/08. I know it's cliche, but time really does go so fast!

Tomorrow we are having a big party for Andrew with family. I'm sure he'll have no idea what is going on, but we are celebrating nonetheless.

Here's a list of things he is doing right now, most of which happened within the last few months, if not weeks:

1. Waves hello and goodbye
2. Says "uh-oh"
3. Says "aw" when he sees a stuffed animal and then he hugs it.
4. Shakes his head "no"
5. Pretends to have a bad cough
6. Knows how to plug in appliances (not a good thing!)
7. Knows how to fill a container in the bathtub faucet
8. Walks, pretty far now before falling
9. "Shares" without actually giving you what he's holding out
10. Holds the phone to his ear or yours
11. Knows how to drink from a regular cup (although he spills everything, everywhere!)
12. Climbs...everything he can

It seems like each day he learns something new. I know that it's the same scenario with all children, but all children amaze me. It's so fantastic that such a small blob of a being can turn into his or her own almost over night. Although I have said (and will say again) that I don't really like this age, because kids are so mobile and yet completely unreasonable, it also stands to say that this is the beginning of a very fun time - a time of discovery and learning, and lots of silly moments along the way.

Happy Birthday, Andrew!

Random Videos

This is just one of many things that Jacob has found to do with his jump rope, except, of course, jump rope. I actually like this video more, however, for the part where Andrew scampers across the frame! He's really moving well now.


Andrew usually likes to crawl onto the trampoline and then bounce on his butt in an attempt to make it move. He's not heavy enough to make any impact, though. He will then watch for Jacob to start jumping and sit next to him to feel the bounce. This time, Andrew tried to stand with Jacob, but instead of jumping (he doesn't know how), he flapped his arms wildly! I think maybe he was trying to fly! Watch Jacob, too - He must have thought that I was taking still shots, because his face is frozen in a very unnatural smile the whole time. What an oddball!

Andrew just recently discovered the stairs leading to our second level. I'm grateful that it took him a while to realize they were there, but simultaneously wishing that he was still unaware of them and his ability to climb them!

More From Jacob

Shortly after Easter, Jacob told me that he wished someone would send him a card with some money in it. “Why?” I said, “You already got some money and your basket for Easter.”

“Well, I could use some more money, and I wish someone could send me some.”

That’s when I decided to tell him that Easter isn’t about candy and money, it’s about celebrating the rising of Christ from the dead. We talked about the crucifixion, how Jesus was tortured and endured such pain so that we could understand how much he loved us, and how Jesus rose after three days in the tomb. I asked him if he understood how special it was that Jesus was risen, to be with His Father. Jacob said he understood, but I know that a little person can only absorb so much.

After a few minutes, he looked at me and said, “You know, just because those people didn’t like Jesus and didn’t believe him doesn’t mean they should beat him up like that.” I agreed with him and tried to emphasize that the fact that He let people be so mean to him and didn’t get angry or try to stop it showed how much Jesus loved everyone, even people who did bad things. Jacob looked at me and then said, “That’s exactly why I am not going to be a burglar when I grow up.”
“Well, I think that’s a good decision.” I said. I think the boy had absorbed about as much as he could! We ended the conversation after that!
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Jacob found an egg that I had hidden for our inside Easter egg hunt last weekend. I’m sure I’ll be finding them for months to come. He was very excited, and when he opened it, he exclaimed, “All right! A three Mouseketeers!”
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Yesterday while we were eating lunch, Jacob said, “What’s the American Embassy?”

Wow. I’m sorry and ashamed to say that I don’t know what all the US Embassy does, so I gave him the best answer that I could, “It’s part of our government that helps and controls people coming into and going out of the country. It is also for US citizens who are in a foreign country and need help. It’s where people go if they want to become a US citizen too. I’m sure there are lots more things it does, but I really don’t know. Why? Where did you hear that?”

“I just made it up.”

Yeah. I don’t think he just made it up. I’m in trouble when this kid gets older. I better start doing some studying now so I don’t give him wrong information!
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Last night, Jacob took a big bite out of a giant chocolate car that he had gotten for Easter and proceeded to knock one of his lower teeth very loose. He was nervous at first, but with explanation, became very excited at the prospect of losing his first tooth. I had to laugh, though. Only my kid, the one who has had two teeth pulled for abscesses and two additional teeth filled, all before the age of 6, loosens his tooth on a chocoalte bar. Aren't kids supposed to lose their teeth in apples????

Smarter Than You Think

That little stinker found an old TV that we don't use in a corner cupboard in our front room. He likes plugs, and this TV was basically almost sitting on the ground, and I didn't think he would be able to pull it over, so I let him play with it. I looked over at him, and he had found an outlet next to the cupboard and was trying (unsuccessfully, thank God) to plug it in! When I asked him what he was doing, he even showed me the plug! Like he was saying, "Here, I'm pluggin in the TV, see." I've seen it time and time again with kids, but it never ceases to amaze me - they know so much more than you think they do! Just by watching me here and there, probably plugging in and then unplugging the vacuum, he knew exactly what to do with that cord. This is exactly why we should never underestimate our kids.

First Steps

Andrew has began taking a few steps last weekend and has been taking more and more steps each day since. It won't be long until he's off and running!

This is a picture of Greg and Fred 40 years from now. Greg is the one holding the plug, and Fred is the one in the background saying, "Squamie, I think your vacuum is broken!"

Our Easter

This year, Easter was a little different at our house. Usually we go to Pittsburgh for Easter, to celebrate the holiday with my sister and two aunts. This year, however, because my grandfather is getting older and is finding it hard to travel, we celebrated Easter here. We had a spaghetti dinner at my house on Saturday and then everyone did their own thing on Sunday. My sister, niece and brother-in-law stayed with my mom, but came to our house Sunday morning to find and open Easter baskets. In the afternoon, Greg, the boys and I went to my in-laws for dessert and an egg hunt.

This is my sister and niece, Ella dying eggs. Ella enjoyed it until she realized that her hands were messy, and then wanted nothing to do with coloring eggs. This child should have been mine, with her aversion to messes!
Jacob, on the other hand, had no issues with mess whatsoever! He thoroughly enjoyed dying eggs, and amassed a huge pile of them. He put every egg in every color of dye, so they all ended up looking the same to me, but he was very proud of them!

This was the best Easter present ever. In fact, it brought tears to my eyes. A few days before Easter, while I was feverishly cleaning and getting ready for the holiday, Jacob asked me for a blank card. I gave it to him, but throughout the course of that evening, I probably yelled at him 20 times. He stashed away this card and gave it to me Easter morning, telling me that this is what he wanted the blank card for. How sweet. I felt like a real jerk for yelling him that day. He drew a picture of me holding a basket of eggs. Also note that he signed the card from himself and "mimi," my mother. I thought that was funny!

Andrew getting the scoop on plastic eggs from Ella.

My dad and Jacob.

Jake also hid Greg's Easter basket.

Jacob found his basket immediately. He has a nose for candy!

Andrew has to taste everything, even if it isn't actually food.

I think he liked his basket.

He needed a little help locating it!

My sister, Dustin and Ella.

Jacob "helping" Andrew find some eggs during the hunt at our house.

Greg grabbing a quick bite to eat with my dad before heading to work. Poor guy had to work night shift on Easter. :(

Andrew likes to meditate over Cheerios in the morning.

Reading the Sunday paper.

Easter

Before I begin this blog entry, let me add a clarifier - I am fully aware that Easter is about Jesus, not Mary. I know there is a large misconception that Catholics worship Mary. Catholics do not worship Mary, and I am not attempting to do so in this entry. I’m just simply relating to her as a mother, during a time which I think must have been incredibly difficult for her, a time which showed not only the extent of Jesus’ faith, but also the strength in Mary’s faith as well. I’m simply empathizing. That's all. That said, here goes:


Easter. The commemoration of Jesus’ resurrection and celebration of his reunion with God the Father. It‘s a story we all know well. “For our sake, he was crucified under Pontius Pilate, suffered died and was buried. On the third day he rose again in fulfillment of the Scriptures. He ascended into Heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father.” Those are words I have said countless Sundays throughout my life. But still, as a child and even as a young adult, I never gave much thought to Easter. I always felt that Christmas was more important. It wasn’t until the birth of my first son, Jacob, that I truly began to appreciate this particular holiday.

Our focus on Easter is Jesus, His suffering for the souls of mankind and His resurrection. It is chilling and sobering to think of his torture, the agony he endured, and his faith not only in God, but in His people - us, yes, that‘s right, you and me. He loved us that much. It’s unimaginable and humbling, as it should be. However humbling these thoughts may be, I find them just beyond my complete intellectual grasp. Intangible. Incomprehensible. All I know is that I should be, and am, forever grateful for His sacrifice for me. But I don’t think I will ever be able to empathize with something so profound. It is too big for me, and so I simply bow my head in appreciation and respect.

Mary, on the other hand, is someone whose pain is more within my reach. I believe that mothers share a common bond. As mothers, we love all children, if not for the children themselves, then for the understanding we have of how strong any mother’s love for her child is. We cry for mothers who have lost their children, and during Holy Week, Good Friday and on Easter, my heart aches for Mary and how she must have felt, walking beside her son as he slowly and painfully died. Her heartache is what brings tears to my eyes as I think of Jesus carrying the cross and dying on Calvary. I feel her need to ease her son’s pain, heal his wounds, take him in her arms. Those are emotions any mother can understand.

A few days ago, the 18 year old boy who was killed at Subway in a local shooting was buried. I cry for his mother and her loss. I think often of my aunt Carmen who lost a baby at 6 weeks to SIDS and later his twin brother two years ago April 9th to another random illness. I think of the little 4 year old boy a few years back who died of meningitis, and the 8 year old who was killed by her Sunday school teacher. I suppose we take comfort in knowing that they are now with God, comforted by him, looking down on those who love them, as Mary took comfort and even rejoiced in knowing that her son had risen. Nonetheless, a mother still longs for her child, still cries. And while I rejoice with the world in Jesus’ love for us, his sacrifice and his resurrection, I still feel a pit in my stomach on Easter for Mary.

Happy Birthday, Gram

This Sunday my grandmother would have been 79 years old. Since it's going to be such a busy weekend, I probably won't have a moment to post any blogs. So here's a quick "Happy Birthday, Gram." We love and miss you.

This is a picture of my grandparents. She has written on it, "Lookout, VA. Easter 1949. Ronnie and Me." On the top of the picture on the front, she wrote "windy." I have the original of this framed at my house. It's pretty ragged, which I think adds character to it, almost reflecting the windy weather they had that day. Aren't they a good-looking couple? My grandmother had striking light green eyes and beautifully wavy black hair.

This is my grandmother getting ready for her wedding. I love this shot. It's candid, and I think she looks so happy and carefree, checking her hair one last time before becoming a bride. I found this years ago in a thank you note she wrote to my great aunt Nora. She had written in the note, "thank you for the beautiful night gown. I will keep it." I thought that was funny - would she have written that she was returning it, if she didn't like it??

I like to think about my grandmother as a young woman. Because I never knew her as an adult, I often wonder about what she was like at my age. I've heard stories, but they aren't the same as really knowing a person. Especially now that I have young children, I wonder how she handled her kids. She had 6 children. I can't imagine that. Sometimes I like to think that she is here, watching and helping me. Other times, I think that notion is ridiculous. Regardless of where her spirit may or may not be, there are a few things I am sure of - that she was a wonderful woman who had a gift for relating to others. Everyone who knew her, liked her. She made people laugh, and gave generously of herself to others. Above all, she is greatly missed and thought of each and every day.

Happy Birthday, Gram. Wherever you are.

A Weighty Matter

I gained 50 pounds when I was pregnant with Andrew. Amazing, isn't it?! I felt huge, but I took comfort in knowing that I would lose the weight. After all, I gained 40 pounds with Jacob and by the time he was 6 months old, I was smaller than when he was conceived. Not the case with Andrew.

3 weeks after having a C section with Andrew, I ran 3 miles on the treadmill. I had a friend's daughter come three days a week to watch the baby while I worked out, and over the summer I lost 37 pounds. I was encouraged. It was going well.

Then came the headaches. My sitter went back to school, I was exhausted and in pain most of the time, and I quit running. I continued to lose weight, though, through diet. In fact, by January, I had lost all of the baby weight. That's great, right? Well, yes and no. It's better than not having lost it, but I omitted the fact that I had put on 7 pounds between when I got married and when I got pregnant with Andrew. So I wanted to lose those 7 pounds.

I went on medication for the headaches, a side effect of which is weight gain. No problem, I thought. I'll up my exercise routine, watch what I eat and it'll be fine. I've never been one to gain weight on medication anyway.

Three months into the medication, the headaches are gone. A huge blessing, but in that time span, I have also increased my workout to 5.5 miles a day, and have been very conscious and healthful about what I am eating. I've even gotten my sweet tooth under control (mostly). As you can see from the picture here, I ran 5.16 miles on the day this was taken - a week ago - and burned 682 calories. This morning I ran 5.48 miles in 52 minutes. I should be well on the way to losing those last stubborn 7 pounds...but no. In fact, I GAINED 3 pounds last month! Unbelievable! I was so discouraged when I stepped on that scale.

The gain can only be attributed to be the medication, because short of being completely psycho, there is no way I be more diligent in my workouts and diet. I don't even remember the last day I missed running. It has to have been more than two months ago. So, I've taken a giant leap of faith (or perhaps stupidity) and decided to go off of the headache medication. I was given a PRN med that seems to alleviate the headaches when they happen, so I plan to just take that for the time being. If the headaches return with a vengeance like before, I will have no choice but to return to the pills, but for now, my weight has gotten the best of me.

Let me add a clarifier here - I know that my weight is fine where it is. I know that I am fit and healthy, and those are the things that really matter. This weight issue is not a matter of vanity either. Aside from Greg, I really don't care much about what other people think I look like. (Anyone who has seen my dress, lack of hairstyle... well, let's face it, anyone who knows me, knows I'm eligible for a slot on "what not to wear" - please feel free to nominate me!!)

Also, I am in no way judging anyone else's weight. It's the same principle as my cleaning neurosis. I am obsessive about my own home, but someone else's mess doesn't bother me. It's just that I miss my old self, and this blog has no other point than for me to indulge myself in some lengthy whining, after running a hell of a long way and wondering why my behind is still jiggling. :(

Thanks for listening!

OCD, Trust and American Idol

Those of you who know me well, know that I have a slight obsessive compulsive disorder. OK, OK, I admit, it's not slight. It's very apparent, and pretty prevalent throughout my lifestyle. I have labeled the washing machine with directions for each respective type of laundry load, labeled the pantry drawers, and made lists for cleaning which are on a 4 week rotation. I keep all towels folded in the same way and stacked facing the same direction, I like to eat at exactly the same time every day...you get the picture. I like to think of it as fantastic organizational skills rather than a true mental illness (although some may beg to differ, like Greg, for instance, who has to hear the rantings when the cleaning list hasn't been completely scratched off by the Saturday deadline!)

Like I said, this OCD is prevalent in most aspects of my life. Take grocery shopping, for instance. I go to Giant Eagle about the same time and day every week. There aren't many people grocery shopping early in the morning, and that's precisely why I shop then. Concurrently, there are always the same two or three cashiers working. After a year of this, they have come to know me, at least by face, if not by name. Last week, while I was unloading my groceries onto the belt, the cashier said, "My! You always lay everything out on the belt so nicely. Everything is grouped together so that it's so easy to pack!"

"Oh," I thought, "even the Giant Eagle ladies know I have OCD." What they don't know is that I actually have the store layout memorized. When I write my grocery list, I write it in the order of the aisles, and then pack the shopping cart in a specific manner as I shop, so that when I unload things, they are automatically nicely grouped! It goes way beyond just unloading the cart! :)

Hey, admitting the problem is half the battle, right...wait, there's no problem! I like things this way!

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Jacob and I have had several talks about lying and how it destroys trust that people have for one another. Not because of anything Jacob has done. He's told a few fibs here and there, but nothing monumental. It's actually been in response to someone else we know well. I have tried to turn some negative incidences into learning experiences for Jake. If I wondered if he was listening, the answer was given to me the other day. In the car on the way home from school, he said, "Mom, Zach lost 20% of my trust the other day. He lied to me."

I said, "He lied to you and lost 20% of your trust? What did he lie about?" I was also wondering where the 20% came from, but I was more curious about the lie itself.

"On April Fool's day, he told me and Bob that he wasn't going to say April Fool's again and then he turned around, laughed and said, 'April Fool's!' He lied."

"Well, I think he was probably just joking. That's a day when you joke one another."

"No. He lied. But J.J. gained 20% of my trust back today. That was good."

I moved along in the conversation with him. "Oh yeah? How did he gain your trust back?"

"He was nice to me all day and shared things with me at play time."

Well, I suppose he absorbed the main point of what I've been talking about. Lies and trust are pretty abstract concepts for a 5 year old. I'm just impressed that he is listening. Coming from the boy who recently visited the audiologist because I thought he may have a hearing impairment (he doesn't), I'm surprised to hear anything that I've said to him come back to me...that is, unless it is potentially incriminating, then he's all about repeating!

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Last night we all watched American Idol together like we always do. Jacob half watches the show, and half plays, but he always listens to our comments. I can't stand Paula and Greg can't stand Kara. We are always telling them to stop talking, and last night Jacob looked at me in the middle of one of their rants and said, "both of those women talk too much." He hit the nail on the head!

I now live in the town where I grew up. Life here is the foundation of small town America. Everyone knows each other. Our next door neighbors have the keys to our homes. We trust and look out for one another. It is impossible to take a walk without encountering numerous friendly and familiar faces. It's a safe place to raise your children, seemingly sheltered from the dangers lurking in bigger cities. We read in horror the metropolis tragedies, but feel comfort in knowing that the likelihood of such things happening here are slim.

How often have you heard that? "Things like that just don't happen here." It's a cliche reaction of a small-towner to some horrific event, but it is also such a true portrayal of the shock one feels when big city tragedy hits home.

Two days ago a man randomly entered a Subway here, shot and killed a high school senior who was working there, shot and injured his teenage coworker, then fled the building, only to shoot another innocent man retrieving his mail. The shooter was apprehended shortly thereafter and is now in custody. Two people are dead, one critically injured. There appeared to be no explanation for the shooter's actions.

I have been thinking quite a bit about how drastically the lives of these families have been changed. How does the family of the man shot while gathering his mail come to terms with that? What about the parents of that boy? They said goodbye to their son, "have a good night at work," not knowing that they would never see him alive again - a promising young man, by all accounts of the media, now gone. What about the rest of us as a community? Are we to be worried that a simple act of stopping for a sandwich for dinner may be dangerous? Things like this don't happen here. We don't run errands with our guards up. Should we?

I'm not saying I'm going to be afraid to go out for dinner, and I know that the community as a whole will recover. The local police, fire and medical departments have done, and will continue to do a terrific job in protecting and caring for us. I'm just shocked at the event. My heart goes out to the families of the victims, and to be perfectly honest, it does make me worry for the safety of my own children.

I suppose that we take a risk every day. There's no guarantee that any of us will arrive safely at work, that our children won't be hurt at school, or that our spouses will return safely home in the evening. I remember being so worried about SIDS when both of my boys were newborn. I was so relieved when each of them passed the 9 month mark, because the risk significantly declined. I think, however, that just because they made it through infancy doesn't mean they will make it to adulthood, or that I will live to see them to adulthood. That scares me, worries me, from time to time.

Thinking too much about those risks will drive a person crazy. To maintain any semblance of normalcy, we cannot allow fear of what may be, guilt for how we should act and don't, or grief for those who have experienced great loss overrun us. It takes me back to 9/11 in many ways. The country was wrought with emotion and wracked with fear, but the message that we sent to one another as a whole was that the key to our survival was perseverance and normalcy, not bravery. You can't be constantly brave without being fearful, and fearful is no way of living.

This tragic event does not compare to 9/11 in the magnitude of lives lost or the impact on the nation, but nonetheless, these families are struggling. They have all lost someone or something very dear to them, something to which we can all relate. My thoughts and prayers go out to them right now.

Sweet Tooth, Not Yet Removed

Harbor House is having a Spring Fling party tomorrow. They divvied up the prizes for the kids by having half of the alphabet (first letter, last name) bring edible treats and the other half non-edible. We had edible, and I bought a 6 pack of big peanut butter melt away eggs for Jake to take in. He saw them on the counter the other day and has been thinking of them ever since. Even with the impending surgery to remove his SECOND abscessed tooth, he just can't break the sugar habit. Usually I don't give him too much grief about it because, frankly, he gets it honestly from me...

This morning on the way to school we talked about what he thought the events of the day would be tomorrow. He wasn't sure, but he wanted to know the whereabouts of those peanut butter eggs. I told him that I had given them to Mrs.Olson. He sat thoughtfully for a while, and then said, "If I win a game, I'm going to pick a non-edible prize, because for the next week I'm not eating any sugary snacks."

I said, "Easter is Sunday, Buddy. You're giving up candy now?" (Shouldn't we have done that for Lent, was what I was actually thinking, but that put too much responsibility on my shoulders, so I didn't voice that part).

"Oh, I'm not giving it up forever. Just for the week. And I'll still be able to eat dessert after dinner, like mint chocolate chip ice cream, just not candy. " (Whew! I was worried!)

"You know the surgery isn't this Wednesday, it's next Wednesday?" I said.

He smiled. "Oh, then I can have one of those peanut butter eggs this week. That's good."

I just shook my head.

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Tonight at dinner, he asked me if calories were good or bad. I explained to him that they were neither good nor bad. We need to eat to live, but if we eat too much, then we gain weight and it makes it harder for our hearts to pump blood to our bodies. I explained it like putting gas in the car, and food is our fuel. He understood, and then asked about exercising. I told him that was a great way to burn calories. We need to move our bodies, and not just sit around and watch tv and play video games, because if we don't burn the calories we eat, then we also gain weight. I talked to him about choosing healthy foods, because they are more likely to have the number and kinds of calories we need. He agreed about that too, and then said, "That's why I like to lift weights and do push-ups." He really does those things, often while I'm on the treadmill. He added, "I think I'm going to jump on the trampoline. That way I'm not just sitting and watching TV. I'm exercising while I do it!" Well, I guess that's better than just sitting there like a vegetable. It doesn't take care of the mind numbing garbage that he's watching, but...choose your battles, right?!

Scenes From the Back Yard

As I mentioned in a previous blog, Andrew loves the swing. Here Jacob is giving him a brotherly shove on the swing set at my parent's house.

And here is Andrew half asleep, lulled by the swing! Amazing! This kid sleeps NOWHERE besides his own bed, and yet he almost fell asleep in a hard plastic swing outside!

Time to Spare

Today Jacob had an appointment at the oral surgeon for his second abscessed tooth. He needed an x-ray, which was taken with a state of the art machine that swirled around his head and then directly uploaded the results into his file via the computer:

I thought this was really cool. First of all, the technology of it was amazing. Then, I was amazed looking at the x-ray. Look at the metal spacer on the left hand of the screen (the thick white spot that looks like a mini frying pan) - that's where the previous abscessed tooth was. Then, look at the gum line - you can see his 6 year old molars about to poke through. They look like they're in little bubbles! Look at the middle front, bottom and top, and you can see his adult teeth behind the baby teeth. It reminds me of a shark mouth with all those rows of teeth! Plus, it's a 360 degree view, laid out flat, so the shape is odd. You can see it better in person, obviously, but you get the point.

The results are the same as last time - he will need to have surgery at the surgery center to remove the offensive tooth. It took two hours for them to tell us this, and have me sign a few forms. We were so bored, that I actually let Jacob take videos of himself running around the lobby with my phone. By that time, no one was left besides us! I'll spare you those videos, but here is one of him, rolling his eyes. He wanted to see what he looked like when his eyes rolled. If you think about it, you can never really see your own eyes roll, because if you're looking at yourself, you're looking straight into your own eyes! I know, I know... that was the deep conversation brought on by oral surgeon lobby boredom!

And last, but not least, here's a short video of Andrew walking with his push walker. It's one of his favorite toys these days. Thankfully, he is not yet walking without it. I'm not sure what the deal on his pants is...

No News is Good News

Well, I still have nothing of importance to write about. Things here have been busy, but unexciting, and believe me, I'm not complaining! Sometimes boring is a welcome guest!

Here are some things Jacob has said recently, that I found amusing:

Brock Ovama (Barak Obama)
Crock Pock (Crock Pot)

While watching American Idol the other night he said, "I agree with Simon."
Greg said, "What did Simon say?"
Jacob said, "What Simon said, I agree with."
Again, Greg said, "But what did Simon say?"
I said, "That she was boring and self-indulgent."
Jacob replied, "Yeah, that."
Greg asked Jake again, "So what exactly did Simon say?"
Jacob said, "Yeah, I agree with Simon."
He had no idea what Simon said. The poor guy was just trying to be a part of our conversation!

Music

I've been feeling very uninspired by pop music lately, so in attempt to freshen my music perspective, I have decided to allow some of my old band-orchestra-chorus-geek music tastes show through. The songs I've chosen are all known by most anyway, so relax a while and lose yourself in some classical tunes (oh, and some Glenn Miller too!)

Hello Easter Bunny

Friday Jacob had a filling replaced after school. He did very well, and as a reward, we went to the mall for an Orange Julius, a ride on the train and a visit with the Easter Bunny. We ran into my nieces there too! Andrew loved the Easter Bunny. I should have taken him along to the photographer a few weekends ago! Maybe then he would have smiled instead of shrieking!

Perhaps the train isn't as thrilling for Jacob as it used to be!

Reaching out to pat the bunny.

Again, Jacob's thrill level is slightly sub-par!

Keirsten and Brooke look a little more exited than Jacob.

Invasion of Fort Jacob

Andrew has discovered Jacob's new hideout. Can't you just hear him saying, "Brudder, are you in there?"
Much to Jacob's dismay, Andrew has staged a full-on attack, or perhaps in Andrew's mind it was a search and rescue operation: "Hang on, Brudder! I'll save you! I'm coming in!"

Unfortunately, Jacob had to defend his lair, and Andrew was carted off, back to the loneliness of the living room. Poor Andrew. :(

Writer's Block!

Well, I feel like I have a bit of writer's block lately. I have nothing inspiring to write about, and nothing monumental going on in my life to inspire me. In a lot of respects, the equilibrium is nice. I'm not complaining. I just don't feel like I have a lot to say!

The boys are doing well. We went to visit my sister-in-law and my nieces today. Jake had a good time playing with them, but Kiersten had a few go-arounds with Jake and Brooke. Jacob and Kiersten have a textbook example of a "love/hate relationship." They are either best friends, conspiring against the world, or arch-nemeses. At one point today, we heard a ruckus upstairs and when we checked on the kids, Jacob informed my sister-in-law that Kiersten was
"having a nervous breakdown." I thought that was kind of funny. I'm not sure where he heard that phrase.

Otherwise, it's been quiet here. That's the way we like it - boring blogs and all!

What's Old Is New

"Outings are so much more fun when we can savor them through the children's eyes."- Lawana Blackwell , The Courtship of the Vicar's Daughter, 1998.

Yesterday I took the boys for a short walk to our local YMCA playground. Our Y has recently completed some very expensive renovations, and this was the first time that we had been inside to see them. They have completely redone most of the building, and I have to admit, it was impressive. I'll have to take a full tour sometime without the kids, or with Greg for help so I can actually look around.

Even with these costly improvements to the inside, they have totally neglected the outside playground. The Y playground was actually redone when I was in either 7th or 8th grade...like, 18-20 years ago (how did I get so old?)! I can remember thinking how wonderful it was back then! When I looked at it yesterday, especially in comparison to the indoor renovations, I was struck with how dingy it appeared. My lack of enthusiasm, however, was not mirrored by my children. Jacob was thrilled with the playground! We have only gone there a few times, preferring the elementary school playground over the YMCA, simply because the Y gets very crowded. Because of our infrequency there, it felt like a whole new world for Jacob to conquer!

He ran from one piece of equipment to the other, commenting on the wonder of each of them - the plastic tunnels balanced on tires, the giant "monster truck" tires that had painted platforms (one of which was even broken!). He thought the sea saw was fabulous (it was splintering, with the paint worn off!), not to mention the twisty slide, and long climbing coils (which were paled by sun damage).

I asked him which playground he liked more and he said, "This one, mom. It has a lot of cool stuff." Andrew loved it as well. He enjoyed the baby swing (which was one of the old-style ones, with 4 holes cut into a big plastic hoop. Jacob thought it was meant for two babies to swing together, back to back!), and he went on the teeter totter with Jacob. He would have loved to crawl around too, but the ground was just a little damp and muddy.

I didn't mention my opinion of the place to Jake. Why ruin his perspective with my jaded viewpoints? I did, however, think about our varying ways of thinking. It's a perfect example of how a child sees the world with fresh, innocent eyes. Something that was old and unworthy of attention to me, was the highlight of Jacob's day. I should really listen to him more often. I might be surprised at what he finds intriguing!

Jacob daring himself to go down the twisty slide!

Jacob climbing the coil...actually, he was literally walking up the coil, inch by inch, until I told him he had to either climb it, or we were leaving! (I was waiting on his "one last thing" before we left. Clever, isn't he?!)

Andrew loved the baby swing. I actually think this is the first time he's been in a big swing!

We have to get the kid a swing for our porch for his birthday.

Video and Pictures

Still not much going on around here. Yesterday I took the boys to a local photographer to have their Easter pictures taken. Jacob was very good, but Andrew had some issues with stranger anxiety. We got a few nice shots of the two of them, but mostly just of Jacob. Here are some of the pictures - I took pictures of them with my phone, so the quality isn't the best. They actually did turn out very nice.

Last night when I rinsed Andrew off after his bath in the sink, he decided to drink from the sprayer. I thought it was cute, so here's the video of that.

Bath Fun

Andrew had an empty bottle, which he kept shoving under the water. He laughed each time the air bubbles popped against his skin.

Where Have I Been?

Sorry for the delay in posting. Time has just gotten away from me in the last week or so, and I've found myself too busy for much time on the computer. You know I'm busy if I'm not even making time for blogging and email! Here's what's been going on:

Jackie:

I drove to Baltimore last Sunday to visit with Jackie for the day. She is doing very well, considering all that she is up against. I felt better having seen her, and it was an enjoyable visit, even with the underlying sadness and concern.

The results from Jackie's amniocentesis came back this week as normal. What a huge relief! While this does not eliminate the brain anomalies from the excessive fluid, it does rule out several fatal chromosomal defects, which is very good news. She meets with the pediatric neurosurgeon next week, so please keep praying that he has good news for her as well.

Me:

I went to Pittsburgh yesterday to the Headache Center for a follow-up for my headaches. I continue to have success with the Elavil, and he prescribed another medication for occasional breakthrough headaches. That medication knocked the headache out well, but made me feel very shaky, nauseated and dizzy, so I will definitely be taking that only on occasion. Still, you have to love modern medicine....when it works, that is!

I have also begun painting my living room, which those of you who have been to my house know is no small feat. It's a big room and a big undertaking. I'm half way there, but two small children make finding time to paint difficult! I hope to have it done by Easter, or at least by Andrew's birthday.

Which brings me to Andrew:

This kid never gets normal illnesses. Recently he had a blocked duct behind the eyelash follicles on the outside corner of his right eye (not his tear duct). He woke up one day looking like he had been in a boxing match! The doctor told me that this scenario often results in surgery to remove the blockage, but by the grace of God, Andrew's resolved with some eye drops. Two days later, however, he had a fever with no other symptoms, which resulted in two days off of day care, and sabotaged my plans to spend one of those days painting my living room. That health issue seems to be over now too.


Andrew now has two more teeth - the two front top teeth, which he happily grits together with his bottom teeth. YIKES! The noise drives everyone crazy!


His new favorite pass times are banging his head against the washing machine (I guess he likes the sound) and flushing the toilet, namely when I am in the shower!


Jacob:


Oh, Jacob. Where do I begin. First of all, Jacob had a routine dentist appointment this week. Andrew was sick, so my mother took Jake. When I called to check on him, she proceeded to tell me that Jacob sat in the dentist chair and told Dr. Hetrick that he felt his "gray tooth was abscessed." Mind you, Jacob has not complained of any tooth pain whatsoever. Indeed, it is abscessed. Jake self-diagnosed it, and is now on an antibiotic, awaiting a consult and surgery (again) to remove the tooth. I feel like the worst mother in the world! This kid's teeth are a mess, but I swear I brush them! I admit that I don't floss them every night, but I do try to do it a few times a week, and we religiously take a fluoride supplement as well as rinse with a fluoride mouthwash after brushing every day. I'm blaming genetics, namely my ex-husband. I didn't have a single cavity until I was 29, and I haven't had one since! It can't be my genes!


Some lighter news about Jake - he has learned to use the phone very well and has memorized some phone numbers (Greg's cell phone and my parent's home phone). While I am glad that he can use the phone independently, he is now minorly obsessed with calling people, and he calls without my knowledge. One day he tried several times to call my parents, but was unable to get through because of mis-dialing. When he finally did get my mom, he was mad at her, wanting to know what was wrong with her phone. He couldn't believe that he had done something wrong, so when she insisted that it was not her phone, he called Greg. He told me that he was calling Greg to see what was wrong with the power lines (since Greg works at a power plant), but when he actually got in touch with Greg, he didn't even mention it.


Jacob has invited my mother down several times without telling me. The point isn't that she's here without my prior knowledge, but rather that a few of those times, Jacob has left with Greg to run errands and mom has been left in the dust! And once, Jacob talked to Greg for 15 minutes while he sat on the toilet (Jacob, that is, not Greg!). How nice!


Jacob spent the night at my mom's house this week and told her that he was in the school newspaper for being the "heart attack" of kindergarten. Not understanding, she asked him to elaborate. He then explained, "You know, when all the girls love you." Heart throb was what he meant!


One last Jacob story, and then I am signing off. Soon after we bought this house, almost 3 years ago, Greg started playing a joke on Jacob with the TV. While Jake was watching TV, Greg would hide behind the couch with the remote and mute it. Then he told Jake that in order to get the TV to turn the volume back on, Jake had to tap his ears lightly. Jake would tap them, and Greg would reinstate the sound. Greg would do this off and on for 15 minutes, howling in laughter as Jacob innocently tapped his ears waiting for the sound to return. It was really funny. Well, yesterday the sound went off by itself momentarily. Greg wasn't even home, and I looked over at Jacob to see him tapping his ears frantically, waiting for the sound to come back! I had to leave the room and call Greg, it was really hysterical! That poor kid!


Oh, I also felt like I needed some more up-beat music on the blog for a while. I had been feeling very mellow recently, but I think that a happier, faster beat is in order, at least for a little while.


Well, I think that is all the news for now. Sorry about the delay in posting. Hopefully things will be a little less busy in the next coming weeks, and I'll have more to report on a regular basis.

A Little Inspiration

Understandably, my mind has been rather fixated on my friend Jackie's situation as of late. I'm thinking a lot of her and her husband, what she is going through, what she will have to face, and also what I have in comparison. She is handling it very well, a testimony to her inner strength and faith. They are at a stand-still for the moment, waiting for the results of the amniocentesis, and later the appointment with the pediatric neurosurgeon on March 17th. She's very Irish (and Italian) so I hope her Irish heritage brings her a bit of luck and good news on St.Patrick's Day. For those of you who are praying, the baby now has a name - Sean David.

In the meantime, I have two inspirational stories I'd like to share. The first is from my mother:

A friend of my mother's, a woman I don't know, was unable to get pregnant. At 41, long after she had given up trying, she became pregnant. Because of her advanced age, the doctors did all of the routine tests on her. The amnio came back irregular, but they could not specify what was wrong with the baby. The recommendation was to terminate, but she refused to give up on her child. Her husband left her because he didn't want to have a handicapped baby, and in many respects her life fell apart. She prepared herself for the worst, but when the baby was born - a little girl - the only thing wrong with her was that she was missing a fingernail on her pinky. For that, she was almost aborted! What an amazing relief for the mother, and a testament to keeping the faith! Sometimes it's not the experts, but rather a mother's gut that gives the best advice.

The next story is one of a couple I personally know. Michelle and Dave, I don't know if you read this blog or not, but I assume you won't mind me sharing your story. It's such an inspiration. You'll forgive me if some of the details are wrong, but the main idea of what you went through is unforgettable.

Michelle was pregnant with twins when one of the twins died. Michelle, like Jackie, had a terrible pregnancy, vomiting non-stop. The doctors recommended that Michelle abort the surviving fetus, because of a long list of complications that could arise from the deteriorating dead baby in her womb. Of course, Michelle and Dave were distraught over this, but they decided that they would follow the doctor's orders, and try for another baby later. Still, the decision weighed heavily on them both. The night before their scheduled appointment in Pittsburgh, Dave had a dream. He was on a football field and a young man came running up to him. Dave looked at the young man and asked, "Alex? Alex, are you alright?" The man responded, "Yeah, Dad. I'm fine." When Dave awoke, he told Michelle about his dream and they decided not to abort the baby. Michelle gave birth to a healthy baby boy, Alex, that June. He'll be 4 this summer, and he's a strapping and brilliant little guy!

It's easy to despair when times are tough, and it's easy to expect the worst. In some ways, I think preparing for the worst is a survival mechanism, necessary to keep us going amidst potential chaos. In many ways, it is difficult to keep faith when things that feel so unjust and cruel are happening. I sincerely believe that God gives us grief to make us stronger, to help us truly appreciate the blessings we have, and to teach us that it is Him after all who is in control, not us, as we so frequently forget.

I am perhaps on of the worst offenders when it comes to losing faith, questioning too much and tightening my own grip of control, but I have been taught, in my own life, and through the lives of others, that sometimes faith is all we have, and sometimes, against the odds, miracles really do happen.

Jackie and Dave could use a miracle about now, so please keep praying, and sending good thoughts their way.

Some Pictures

Jacob made me a birthday cake. I was about to blink in the picture.

My special cake.

Big Hair Saturday Night - ready to ROCK!

Plastic bags are fine toys for infants!

Group sing!

Ed jams it out with Freddy!

The dinosaur excavation.

"Don't you love my hat?"